So this is how it’s going to be i guess, i really can’t be mad because it was my decision. But my heart hurts. Everyday since last thursday.
I have literally never cried so hard in my life like i did last thursday, I cried from 10:00 a.m till 4:30 p.m, and i’m not exaggerating. Non-stop crying.
I miss you everyday. But for the first time i stood up for myself, you wanted to apologize and you didnt even know why i broke things off.. You’d feel awful if you knew. I told you no, i told you i didn’t want to talk to you. Why did i tell you that? i didn’t mean it. of course i want your apology, of course i want to talk, but i can’t. Because i can’t just fall back in your arms whenever you say sorry. I’m tired, physically tired from hurting. I’m weak, physically weak for you. I’m in pain, physical pain, my heart hurts, and my chest always feels swelled up.
don’t get me wrong i’m happy, i dont have to worry about you, i don’t have to stress over you, but when i sit down and think of it, i almost cry that hard again. I’m just fine without you. I just know i’d be better with you.
but who are you anymore? i don’t know. You’ve been my only best friend for 2 years, and now i can’t trust you, i can’t respect you, you aren’t my best friend anymore.
I lost that. You lost that. Where’d your heart go?
